untitled!

This is a poem i wrote a loong time back..probably in the 11th grade...i couldnt really think of an apt title to it

She waits silently,she prays

She prays for all her pains to go away..

Her thoughts encroach upon her

Her mind is entrapped with boundless fears

She shuts her eyes,she looks for clear skies

But is blinded by the fog that overshadows the light

She gets lost in the ashes of time

The good and the bad memories flash across her mind..

While she tries to captivate the good ones...she makes an attempt to escape from the others

She tries to cry out loudly,for agonising memories have been stalking her for a while

She could evade the situation but that would only lead to self-denial

All her cries seem to get lost unheard

All her tears seem pointless and even more...they hurt

Perhaps she's waiting for something to happen..or someone

Perhaps she's trying to analyse instead of going for a run

Perhaps she's a fallen angel,bruised and hurt

Perhaps anguish is the only way she can express herself..for the rest are burnt...

She needs someone to come and take her broken wings

She needs to learn how to pull herself together,fly and be daring

Suddenly she questions herself"Do I deserve to go through all this pain??"

Do I have a reason or is it just in vain?!"

She probably herself had the answers to her questions

For she now looks up at the bright moon which assures her of a new day

A day when the sun will dry up all her tears

And melt the temporarily frozen fears...

Till then she waits patiently in the shadow cast by the moonlight

She sits still...as she seeks for new light~

-----sreya

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"iGnore ,if you must...
Leave ,if you want...
but You cant Break someone who is ALreadY broken...!"
-sreya

a moment i shall always cherish

As we performed kryptonite..d audience cheered with us..in the end they screamed out.."once more"..what else does one want to hear as a performer:)

For some people it might not be something BIG,but for me .performing LIVE in front of an audience was a first.IT was an extraordinary experience:D.when i was up there on stage,i WAS living my dream!!..a band..lead vocalist etc etc.i was sooo nervous before my performance but weirdly enough it all dissapeared while i performed..i felt SOOO free with the mike in my hand.i felt as if i was in control of the mike and had to let go!!

~StranGEr than ficTion~

Some things are beyond the understanding of the human mind..they cannot be explained easily.just sometime back i had kind of decided to find out more about the paranormal phenomenon but after i attended the"magic" workshop at my college i changed my mind.

when one thinks of magic,the first thing that comes to their head would probably be rabbits popping out from hats or doves coming out from the magician's coat.But the thing is magic is much more than just that.
there are soo many types of magicians..illusionists..mentalists,escapologists,prestidigitates etc
The best being david copperfield,david blaine,max mavin(a true genius) and Derren Brown.The most fascinating part is that more than the secrets,it depends on the performance.It depends on the ability to distract the aud and in some cases suggestive hypnosis.while max mavin mystifies people with his psychic abilities,derren brown on the other hand is a skeptic.two different schools of thought and yet soO believable...
Magic is and always will be something which goes wayy beyond the understanding of our minds and experiencing it is a thrill by itself:)!

our 2nd A.d assignment

toldya bout the bergisel ski jump 4 of us hadta study extensively...here is the modelmade by:me,shruti,ashutosh,siddesh

IS HUMAN NATURE as complicated as we imagine it to be?
unpredictable
undecipherable?!
Are our thoughts,the feelings ,emotions as temporary ,can we REALLY forget and get over people?!
if so..then why is it so painful?even though you are conscious of the practical aspect of it..why cant one get over it?!...

no time for mourning-ainT got no timE!!

so what happens when your back from a nice ,longg diwali vacation..well get bombarded with tons of work

a.d-lan,elevation n section n a model of this creepy yet awesome structure called bergisel ski jump.The architect who came up wid dis structure is zaha hadid.she's truly an amazing architect!

b.d-transformation of the mask we made sometime back!

humanities-study an area of mumbai extensively..which includes the political,social etcetc stuff

..and another event thats coming up is our freshers party(finally!!).yes and its at enigma!!never been there so it shud be a good experience m presuming.another event thats coming up in december and well the thought of it is keeping me ALIVE is the annual fest!

and ofcourse the most important thing i am looking forward is...the porcupine tree concert at mood I:Dyess i bet it'll b awesome ..especially if they play the songs i know!!

about porcupine tree-its an awesome band!and each and every song of theirs is frckin awesomEE

deadwing...trains...sound of muzak....collapse the light into the earth....blackest eyes..open cars..lazarus...half light n more!!

when NOTHING ELSE MATTERs!!

guitar pro 5-nothing else matterss

only acoustic

only drums

all instruments---daemnn only if i had an acoustic version of the song

well pro does not only help 1 to be awesome at playin the guitar but also tells you when the other instruments come in.

so well in the past 1week ive been enlightened(in terms of music).ive been listening to opeth,vai,pantera and what not.

And what changed ,i started appreciating them.realllyyy goodd stuff i tell you,as long as your paying attention to the guitar parts.well i should partially thank my guitar teacher (who is bdw younger than my sis!)

but well i really love my guitar and really wish to be good at playing it perfectly:D

atleast then ritz and I could have REAL jam sessions

\m/

flashbackkk !

aahhhh so havnt been on the comp in ae looong time.cannot help it busssy schedule..no time even to breaathee.but well last 2weeks were kinda awesomee if i leave out the me-givin I-rock a miss and well da crappy b.d(basic design)project!!

1]durga puja-was fun fun funn

2]my cousin came down from the u.s and well we had ae cute little thing among us-Nalini sophiee,yep my niece and yes she is semi indian and well semi german.She is the cutest thing ive everr seen.the little thing kept running around all over the house thanx to her hyperactiveness, and kept asking for her "na-na"..thats how she refers to her pacifier.She was like a perfect doll..u know the rosy cheeks ,fair skin and dark blonde hair!!

she slept in such a blissful manner as if she had no worries in the world ,yeahh i do wish i was a kid again...you can get away with so many things and well donot have to be responsible for anything

the nostalgic fEEling:)

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same".-- Anonymous


Today me,ritz and vidz finally met after such a long time.It felt like we met after ages,there was soo much to catch up on.Different colleges ,different experiences and different degrees of wildness....

However i realised that no matter how different we become as individuals,ultimately we are still the same people .I dont think people change,i think with time and experience,their views about the things around them change...

Pan'[S labYRINTH

And so yesterday we watched pan's labyrinth at college.The story is setup during the spanish civil war time.the story not only talked about the violence and bloodshed at the time of gen.marco's dictatorship but a simple story ran parallel to it.What fascinated me was the fact that the little protagonist (like every one of us)dreams so much so that her perfect dreamy world becomes real for her.(The way i interpret the movie)Ofelia(the protagonist)is a child who cannot bear all the violence and darkness around her..and so through her fairytales she tries to get some ray of hope.in her fairytale she is a princess and she "must" complete some tasks before being "reunited with her father".
I absolutely loved the movie..even though it was a tragic movie but the story actually deals with so manyy human aspects besides brutality and war.It shows the innocence and pureness of a child's heart and how we as people try to live in a makebelieve world(built up by our subconscious mind) to escape our humanself and the pain we get from the real world....

HeirLoOOOoooM

One mustve heard of passing on traditions,passing on cultures,passing on some piece of jewelry but how many times does one hear of people bequething a star!!??

Well guess what my uncle who is supposedly a nuclear scientist did so..so well i am a proud owner of a fraction of the star:D.And when i had to present this to my faculty..they were pretty much fascinated..

The chick AND the hypocrite

The wEIrdest thiNg everrr..girls whO do outrageous stuff to grab attention.even worse ..the guys who give them tHE MUCH required attention:P
So..I know i Donot definitely fall under the "chick"category b'coz
1.i donot play along wid wateva shitty opinions some people have
2.i am not ANTI clothes
3.and noooo i donot wear loud nailpaints/accessories

so what does that make me..ae hypocrite??..well in that case i dOnot mind being 1!..in reality however rude this may sound..i dont like people who are fake..their forced attempt to please people and seek attention kind of overshadows their personality.one doesnt have to be a stereotype to be a part of something..!

10daYZz of mADneZzzz!!!

Ohkie...now that was a nicee long break i took from blogging:P..actually i had no time at all(even to breathe!).As i talked about the fairy tales we had to write..well guess what,that wasnt it!!we had to make a 3D structure out of the essence of the story.something interactive..movable etc etc.Well the madness began a few days back when we had to make storyboards,and start brainstorming about what could be made?!well since our story dealt with perception,transformation and reflection mainly,we decided to makea "top" .The idea was to make a top which would give an effect of tornado from the inside...Well we started cutting split bamboos,quarter bamboos,drilling,using binding wires and"sukris".it was fun and well initially there were lots of errors..our(my group) lives kind of revolved around that for dayss together..to the extent that once we stayed back till 11 in the night and came bak at 6 in the morning!!!well even thbough the whole workshop thing was exhausting..i kinda had funn:D...working with seniors..getting to knoww people..well it was all good stuff.and at the end even though we gave up completely since we thought our structure might not movee...it ultimately rolled over at the canteen area!!and yess with a person inside it..even the kaliedoscope that we constructed and attached to our spiral worked for a while...it was our veryy first huge (approx 9ft tall)structure so i am wayy tooo delighted about how the whole thing worked out:)

fAiRy talESss

taLK about human psychology.We all like fairy tale endingz for some illogical reason!so well today at college we had to write stories with twists in the plot.Some people wrote sattirical

stuff while some wrote dark stuff.however when u come to think about it,in todays world if you say u believe in fairy tale endings,people would consider you as delusional!But whats wrong in believing in some that gives you hope,happiness.i feel fairytales fulfil the suppressed emotions that every human posseses.everyone wants to be beautiful (not always in the literal way),therefore you have sleeping beauty,nobody wants to be dominated over-thats when cinderella comes in and so on...

what we wish for is fulfilled in fairytales..with the happy endings and a level above reality..our imagination:)

vAriable DEgrees oF iNner TURbulENCe

today was my first day at k.r.v.i.a.IT was really good.atleast i enjoyed every crazzy things that the seniors asked us to do.i met different kinds of people yet again and well so yeahh(i dont like elaborating :P)









When i was in the ninth grade i had 'JUlius caesar".there was a dialogue in that book which talked about how his feelings conflicted his intellect.it is a very fascinating line at so many different levels.There are so manyy things that our heart tells us to do but those feelings get overpowered by our minds.why does this happen?why do we have to think a zillion times before taking a decision even when you feel it would be right.weirDly enough we all are governed by our minds...and our minds restrain our actions.The million dollar question is why do we let this happen ?and is it true that whatever our minds tell us to do is always right??......

LAzaRUS

As the cheerless towns pass my window
I can see a washed out moon through the fog
And then a voice inside my head breaks the analogue
And says
"Follow me down to the valley below
You knowMoonlight is bleeding from out of your soul"
I survived against the will of my twisted folk
But in the deafness of my world the silence broke
And said
"Follow me down to the valley below
You know Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul"
"My David don't you worry
This cold world is not for you
So rest your head upon me
I have strength to carry you"
(Ghosts of the twenties rising Golden summers just holding you)
"Follow me down to the valley belowYou knowMoonlight is bleeding from out of your soulCome to us LazarusIt's time for you to go"
-----by the porcupine tree





There's something soothing about this song that i really like.The lyrics are beautiful and so is the song.=)

adios~

The ECLIpSED EmoTIonzZ

So when do you come to know whether a person likes you.?well the other my sis and I went to red box cafe and were discussing about this.We came to the conclusion that if person hates you or likes you..either way he/she has some strong emotion towards you.But if the person shows indifference,it could naturally mean that he/she has absolutely no emotions towards you.

The irony of life..Sometimes you miss a person who doesnt even acknowledge your existence.

EveryDAy

everyday..is a new day
everyday is refreshing
everyday is better then the previous day
atleast we wish it were so...

everyday we anticipate
anxiousness takes over us
everyday we keep waiting for a miracle to happen
and still wait beyond reason...

everyday is a chance
a chance to wipe out all our mistakes
a chance to say things we left unsaid
a chance to make ourselves better people

everyday we learn
we learn something new, however small
something that enriches us,
our various experiences in this ride called life

everyday becomes yesterday
a day we would either like to forget or cherish
everyday is what we make of the day,pleasant or boring

everyday..we look forward to a new day
a day that would be better than today
a day that was better than yesterday

_sreYA

WE are LUnatICs..spreaD the WORd:P!

At all phases of the 18 yrs of my life,ive met people who are like me(atleast we think alike!).Though the number people who completely understand me are very few,atleast i know they will be there for me when i need them.

what is common between me,ritz and paav..(samee school of thought).we all think alike and thats what makes my level of insanity bearable:P.
For instance,whenever ritz and i go anywhere..we end up laughing and well the people around us end up thinking we are lunatics(which we kind of are bdw:D)
I miss my group of friends at school..we called ourselves "chuddie buddies"..actually it was more like..fluddie duddie haddie gaddie chuddie buddie(hav noo idea wat it means..:Pbut well dont really need a reason to be MAddd

Coming up with names for our virtual band!...bunking school to sit in the library and talk(that to unlimited supply of topicz!) and more..lol
Those were seriously the best days of my life and infact now im even taking guitar lessons so that one day we could have a band of our own!
xD

TImeS AT RiZWEeeeeee

Well,lil bit of march,april and may were pretty boring.i was getting into a routine of waking up at 11,goin online,watching a movie,going to the club and playing,reading at intervals and then sleeping for hours together again.SO i guess mom finally decided that since i'll be going to college and all, i should get into a habit of waking up early!And when the princi of rizvi was also keen to make me join the class,well i guess i ended up attending 30days of pre orientation classes(i.e if that existed).the GOOD news is that well the college was not at all like what i had expected it to be.i was having a lot of funnn.I made manyy friends,and each person was surprisingly unique in their own way.that was the first time i realised that probably adapting to changes wouldnt harm after all:D

rizvi was actually fun..we went to various random placess,clicked infinite pictures,I sang as usual and surprisingly people here appreciated my VOICE:P..lol

Well now that ive joined k.r,i will seriously miss my rizvi friends and the weird connections some of us shared:/
adios ~

tadaaahhh

So now i finally have ae blog of mY own.will learn eventually how to use it WISELY but for now shall ryte some crap.SO to begin with ryte now i am an 18 yr old girl who will be studying at one of the best architecture schools,kamla raheja:D(yeah pretty excited obviously)