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Dark Tranquility

 

In the silence..
As the crimson sun rose
She sat,gazing out of her window
She had an imperious desire for solitude
Invoking the dark clouds to explode
But the Gods had no mercy on her
as they sadistically watched her fall apart
They judged her,mocked her,shattering her will power..
While she strived to find the pieces and put them together
You could see her struggle as she fought the melancholy in her eyes.
She immersed herself in a sea of desolation
Only to find a murk
A murk so deep and infinite
That the vastness consumed her
It brought her at last...
tranquility

                                                                                                                                                 -sreya

an attempt to Animate.

girl freed

She was lured into the darkness..to break-free…

Some more Art.

dodlegirl

 

metamorphed

PAint it!

okay so i’m new at sketching on a computer software,so tried my  luck anyway.I was doing a project,editing imgs ,when suddenly my mind drifted away and i had to sketch:)
270017_10150657862645214_865780213_19367480_5807936_n Okay so the above image was an experiment to sketch death(as personified)’s shadow in a graphic novel style,i hope to get better at it :D

Acqua let me introduce you to the soothing,calm but unforgiving sea creature-Ac Qua
all
Above:all thing WHITE and wonderful?!

Copy of ulqiora
my image of ulquiorra <3 yes,from bleach :)
DAVID GILMOUR1 this was the first pen and ink rendering i tried on david gilmour:)
one of the newer ones...
the time traveller transiting from the primary to the tangential Universe....

The Art of being RANDOM

Sometimes you might just be lost when two people are having a conversation which makes no sense to you,trust me..it is NOT supposed to make sense.Welli’m one of the ‘lost’ people but i am still learning:p

So here are certain things i have observed and would love to list down which well,could be your ‘key to being random’

1)your sentences should be short,preferably stick to one word.

2)your sentence(word)must end with a punctuation,no not comma but a .

yes.

3)you and the the person you are talking to,must at all times talk about two completely unrelated topics.

4)corollary:unless you both are playing the ‘word connect’game

5)At no point must you question what the other person said even though it makes absolutely no sense at all,you have to just go with the flow.

eg.A says:sky

Bsays:blue.

A replies:i don’t like

B says:your hair.

(so you get it,don’t you?)

6)for emphasis a full stop OR a smiley like O.O,>.>,:@ is acceptable

7)most of the time when you have to speak random with a person(yes i just said SPEAK RANDOM>who knows tomorrow it’ll be a term mentioned in the dictionary!),especially random comebacks,you have to say something equally or more ridiculously random/non sensical to be err..epic.

8)always keep in mind,you must say things absolutely futile and irrelevant

9)Soon,when everyone starts speaking random”oohh,i’m a flying pig”

                                                              “you are such a chewing gum”

sentences will soon be restricted to a string of max 4 words to being absolutely redundant.

:)so bye now.must go now.justin beiber has beautiful hair.

Killing in the name OF?

I’m probably the last person to be interested in politics,our government and everything related to it ,that is not denying the fact that what happens around us repeatedly,over and over again,affects me..So much so that i am provoked to write about it!


Today,13th July,2011 there was a series of 3 bomb blasts in the city.And THIS is NOT the first time….Something like a Lok pal bill which this country really badly needs to have in place ,simply cannot be passed!Is our country supposedly secular,sovereign blah blah one slipping away?Zaveri bazaar which is one of the major landmarks of the city has been targeted around three times already?..And THAT doesn’t give any clue to the cops?!It’s very frustrating when we just let people come and tear the city apart!Even when we say we must fight against terrorism,where do we start?Shouldn’t we pin point the corrupt politician and overthrow them first!It’s their sense of generousity that has sheltered and protected the ones who have disrupted the peace of this very city.They are supposedly the voice of the people,so where does this voice dissapear?!


Scared we are but not paranoid enough to see changes,changes that would stop such instances!We are always ready to merge religion with politics,it’s laughable since ultimately it’s got nothing to do with religion but how it’s a trump card often played to create diversions!



“I can’t see tomorrow


for today was disrupted by darkness


I strived to find my way through it


but my own kind pulled me down.


If only i could see tomorrow


If only the blurr was gone..


‘oh,why do you pull me down?


I am Not the enemy’


A blank stare is all he could give


for he had no answers and he shall never have


guilt will take over him one day


certainly,one day.”


-sreya

An Ode to thee,megalomaniac.

 

Oh,how high you soar!
So full of might!


While men of your kind despise you
Your flatterers ready to kiss thy feet!

inflated with your own little pride
Such unfathomable narcissism.

bravo!to your fine disguise.

what if I cut off both of those wings
Would your feet ever reach the ground?
Could you  ever be human?
Would you ever care to step down....

                                                                                                           -sreya

The Darkest Moon

Today didn't seem like the other days.Today was cold,dark yet hopeful.It wasn't like I walked for a thousand miles but i was breathing which gave me a little hope.Even in the darkness,i felt so bare.The darkness hid nothing,nothing at all.'I 'couldn't be kept a secret anymore."So,we meet again"she said.She was too sure of herself.This time she wasn't going to keep mum.To her I was nothing but a dead weakling.She failed to see what made me this way.I was compelled,but a part of me needed her,I' was nothing,absolutely nothing without her....Or so I thought."Why are you here?,I don’t need you”I conformed unwillingly.She looked at me with a wide smile as though i  gave myself away,or did i?"’tis funny you say that,you sound like me…Admit it, YOU are nothing without I(me).”It was true after all,she makes me stand,she let’s me fall,her actions makes me high and her irrational decisions sometimes causes immense pain and anger.But evading her will solve nothing.”you have no choice but to embrace me,because……. I am your thoughts,I am your subconscious mind,I am your ‘inner’self,I am You”.

The moon seems the darkest today,a tinted gray……the world seemed derranged to me as i let my shadow enwrap me..bound to her i am ..for eternity.

consciousness of thought.

Benumbed i am

in this world of hate

i have no place,i am nothing.

But a shadow

which disappears in light.

what lay betwixt you and me

has faded out..

Maybe I was disillusioned

Maybe you’re just a ghost

a phantom.

so spare me this pain you burden me with

enough with this labyrinthine

let me be

set me free.

                   -sreya

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Images...@Ahmedabad

Right in the midst of the nerve-wracking architectural design project and infinite number of submissions,our class decided to go to ahmedabad partly to be 'inspired'by the play of light and sounds in spaces.we saw a lot of places in a span of two days,even though we spent at an hr and a hald at each place,it wasn't enough to sit and observe,sketch the interesting spaces.But the most eminent structures that captivated me were CEPT (i.e the Center for environmentl planning and technology) (b.v.doshi-architect) and MillOwner's Association building by Le Corb.The supremely short trip was amazing no doubt but the only thing that was dissapointing was that we did not get to see IIM-A(by architect-louis kahn):(.But in a way it means we need to make another trip to ahmedabad so well i'm game for that:).
below are some images that i had taken of cept,gandhi ashram and hussein-doshi gufa..followed by some quick sketches i made at CEPT and Mill Owner's...






























































































a Sketch i made at cept










sketches i made at MIll Owner's
(of the ramp at the entrance from inside)









(from the ramp

Images and words….

 

poetry

"My Body Is A Cage"



My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head
I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
My body is a
My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven
I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
Set my spirit free
Set my spirit free
Set my body free
                                  -arcade fire

The difference between the realm of sanity and insanity is that nothing makes sense in the world of sanity while nothing is SUPPOSED to make sense in the realm of insanity…

                                                                                        -Sreya

The Looking-Glass

I see you

You.

freak of nature

shards of glass

introverted.silent.

Delusional.

Judgemental,You are.

Awake.Not quite.

Dreaming away.

Ego,You are full of.

Envy engulfs you.

You superficial being.

vindictive.caught up in this vicious circle

Distorted.

Ugly aren't you.

Shocked.what do i see?

a reflection of me.ME

---Sreya Creative Commons License
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Since one perceives a person by how they see themselves.Not through a lens,but a looking glass. imagesCAT2VEM6

Darko'ed!

Donnie Darko-A Personal Apocalypse
This movie is Richard Kelley’s debut film as a writer-director.Before the making of this film,Kelly had directed a couple of short films.Donnie Darko can be easily termed as a surrealist/sci –fi/psychological thriller.
This movie is based on a book called’The philosophy of time travel” written by Roberta Sparrow(portrayed as ‘grandma Death’in the movie).If I were to explain the movie in two lines,I’d say it is about a highly intelligent teenager diagnosed with borderline schizophrenia who seemingly survives a tragic accident,who is in the quest for ending the temporal paradox cycle.
But there is much more to itthan that, which would on one level suggest that all the events that occur are psychological,but in a deeper sense it also talks about the possibility of time-travel .Donnie Darko (played by Jake Gyllenhal) is the protagonist who is experiencing several strange and surreal events, not the least of which is a jet engine crashing through the roof of his house,the jet engine which has not been reported missing from any plane.The strange events began to occur from October 1st,1988. The jet-engine is actually from October 30th(the future), disappearing through a time corruption 28 days into the past. This catastrophic event distorts spacetime ,creating a Tangential universe (TU).The movie as well as the book describes the concept of the Primary Universe(PU), which we inhabit, the Fourth Dimension of Time, and the highly unstable Tangent Universe. The formation of a Tangent Universe is an extremely dangerous event, which can cause the collapse and destruction of the Primary Universe.The two essential elements for time travel being water and metal.The metal being the Artifact, The Artifact is a metallic object which signals the formation of a Tangential Universe, and appear under mysterious and inexplicable circumstances.Hence the jet engine was the Artifact which the Living Receiver(Donnie, as the artifact falls in his room) had to bring back into the Primary Universe, thus closing the Tangent Universe before it can fatally collapse.The Living Receiver is often blessed with Fourth Dimensional Powers. These include increased strength, telekinesis, mind control, and the ability to conjure fire and water. And so in the movie, Donnie floods the school and burns down a house,.conjuring fire and water.According to the book,the Living Receiver is often tormented with terrifying dreams,visions and auditory hallucinations which are linked with the tangential universe. but one ,would be prone to confusing his psychological ability as a disability as one would perceive him to be delusional and schizophrenic.Two important characters which had the ability to completely turn the plot around were the ‘Manipulated dead’(Frank,theBunny/the person Donnie had previously shot in the eye,before the time-loop began, for running the car over his girlfriend Gretchen and ‘Manipulated Living’(Gretchen ,who’s death provokes Donnie to put an end to the time-loop).
The whole concept of time travel and the various portals that help in manipulating the past and future were quite intriguing.Since the movie was timed in the 1980’s period,the play of light and shadow came across very well even though the film was shot in the year 2001.Jake Gyllenhal’s performance was exceptional since throughout he appeared to be mentally ill but ironically he was the one who ultimately saves the world. Another interesting observation I made was that each of the characters were like the pieces to a jigsaw puzzle. Each of them played an important role in helping Donnie in returning the artefact.We witness this in various instances like Donnie’s science teacher who introduces him to the book called ‘philosophy of time travel’,then the English teacher(played by Drew Barrymore) talks about a literary work called ‘The Cellar Door’ literally guiding Donnie, since each of these characters(including Grandma Death) seem to have some kind of inside knowledge and a sense of what's going on as though they are all merely acting their lives as in a well rehearsed play, especially Grandma Death and her endless trips back and forth to the mailbox looking for Donnie's letter.To a certain extent,the movie also plays with the subconscious mind since Frank, whom Donnie had already shot in the eye in the primary universe was perceived by Donnie as theBunny with a bleeding eye(since Frank dressed as the Bunny for Halloween)when the Bunny from the tangential universe haunted him.The camera shots were also well taken as in many instances,the camera zoomed in to capture Donnie’s expressions which kept changing whenever he had epiphanies of the repetition of events.The background scores were also very interesting.The movie includes songs like "The Killing Moon" by Echo & the Bunnymen,Joy Division's "Love Will Tear Us Apart" and "Proud to Be Loud" by the Pantera,creating a whole atmosphere of the 80’s rebelious,teenage angst.The most interesting number,was at the song at the end of the movie”Mad World’ which is originally by the band Tears For Fears but the one included in the movie was covered by Gary Jules on the piano.I found this track particularly fascinating since the lyrics with the piano backdrop creates the feeling of surrealism.While the song is played in the background,the shot reveals the changes that overcome each person,the never ending time-loop had affected.Each of them have a certain memory of what had happened time and again.I think overall Donnie Darko,the movie has maintained the essence of the book without directly revealing the subject.Even though the concept appears to be convuluted,the series of events take place in a very logical way and are all connected,though one has to look out for the minor details which help in understanding the plot better with ofcourse the help of the guide’philosophy of time-travel’.
Donnie Darko got pretty extreme reviews.Though some believe the movie to be a cult film which many could not decipher and hence liked,others suggest that it is a coming of age,romantic black comedy about time travel,teen angst,dysfunctional suburban family (which is very evident from the kind of house they lived in).
Another movie that caught my attention ,as it deals with the similar subject of time travel and alternate endings is “The Butterfly Effect”.It deals with the idea of ‘what if’ scenarios which,in a way compels the main character(played by Ashton Kutcher) to remain in a time loop of sorts.Though in the movie,the tools used for time travel does not involve portals like water or metal,instead it was vaguely based on the butterfly effect which in turn is based on the scientific theory called the Chaos theory.Even though I enjoyed this movie as much as I enjoyed Donnie Darko,I think the concept of time travel was dealt more strongly in Donnie Darko than in The Butterfly Effect.Actingwise,both the movies had actors who performed exceptionally well.The Butterfly Effect stressed more on the alternate endings(what if scenarios) rather than the process while in Donnie Darko the alternate ending appears only at the climax of the movie.If I were to compare the special effectsin both the movies,The Butterfly effect being a more recent movie(2004)had better effects.Also,as a sci/fi,psychological thriller,Donnie Darko has a stronger concept.In the Butterfly Effect,the element of thrill lies more in the alternate endings rather than a problem the main character is dealing with,while in Donnie Darko the element of suspense remains till the end as the audience is perplexed whether the apocalypse is for real or in his head.
---- Sreya

hello-covered by meh:P

karaoke version-plenty of errors,but working on them:P

....In the Half light


"What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more' ... Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: 'You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine."
-Friedrich Nietzsche